kepada orang yang banyak bunyi

Fuck!why do you have to be so fucking irritating!!!..da la x buat keje..nak bising pulak tu..mcm sial!!!i need to get myself away from this bitch!

i feel good!

i am feeling glad. i thought that we're gonna be drifted away from each other for real. you are significant to me. and yeah, i miss u so much too! =D

i wanna, i wanna, i wanna...

it's Halloween and im stressing out reading ridiculous book and notes on ethnic relations. it's effing boring and mundane. ethnic relations paper tomorrow morning and im still trying hard to understand shits. no AAR for me. sigh~

i want more time to cover all 9 chapters!!

aku rindu kamu

rindu itu sakit

rindu itu duka

rindu itu sering membuat hati kita terluka

tetapi manusia akan terus merindu dan menyayangi

kerna tanpa rindu dan kasih

hati kita sayu dan layu

bila tidak kenal erti rindu, hati kita tidak hidup

tetapi rindu yang tidak kesampaian membuatkan hati kita lebih mati dan sepi menagih simpati

after 3 years of struggle and hardship

i had never thought convocation can make me thrilled and excited. i'd always thought it's gonna be lame and bored waiting for your turn to get that one piece of cert and throwing the graduation cap in the air because apparently everybody does that during convocation. however, it turns 180 because

CONVOCATION WAS A BLAST!

i feel so proud of myself even though it was just a diploma but still it means a lot. my parents came. they actually took a day off and came to shah alam and spent the whole boring day at dewan sri budiman just because of me. it was such a fantastic feelings to walk up that stage and knowing that your parents are looking at you in awe.

if only i can get ANC, my parents would be hella proud of me. i envy those who got ANC, in a good way.

i got up as early as 9am to get ready for convocation. when to the salon somewhere around commercial with dania to get our hair done. arrived at the dewan sri budiman around 12pm and it was packed with students and their family. i started to get cranky because it was hot and jammed with people. owh, and i wore a white baju kurung that i bought 3 days before convocation with nadya. pretty much last minute, i know. after a long queue, we were seated in the hall and thay played some montage on uitm achievement and development. how uitm blossom from a small RIDA with 50 trainees and now into uitm, a world class university with more than thousands of students.

PROUD, PROUD, PROUD.

when it was all done everyone started to dashed out from the hall to get to their families and friends. i was pretty much lost. i couldn't find my parents and i couldn't find my friends. and the telephone line was insane! i couldn't make a call. luckily i found mak and ayah waiting for me at a corner and yes pictures time!then came afeeya and hanee!!my favourite people!.i feel so touched the fact that they came bringing me flowers and gifts congratulating me. i love you hanee, i love you feeya! =D

it was fun. nak convo lagi!!!!!!hehe

uitm iv debate competition

let's talk about the debate tournament shall we?. it was my first debate tournament where i am presenting UT MARA alongside ardie as my partner. BP style.

FIRST ROUND: This house would ban face veils

we're the closing opposition and we argued that if we ban face veils it will deter the muslims' freedom of expression and rights to choose. we got 2nd place after KDU for this round.

SECOND ROUND: This house would arm militias to fight against Taliban

This round was a disaster!!!!we were up against MMU 1, MMUM 1, and UT MARA 1!they're all intimidating. awesome debaters!and i have no idea what's the issue, the problem, and even the status quo to begin with. we didn't bring any books which is suicidal and we're the OPENING GOVERNMENT!!!..i've managed to set up shitty case and talk crap for the whole 7 minutes of my speech including answering two killer POI. totally a disaster.

THIRD ROUND: This house would not support 1 Malaysia F1 team

ok, i know what 1 malaysia is all about but 1 malaysia F1 team??what the hell was that. so it must be about unity but what does racing cars have to do with it??since we're the opening opposition and the gov kept on talking about how it will be a waste of money, we argued on how the gov had done their part in creating and providing infrastructures to the citizens. it was pretty bad because we didn't engage with the debate as much as we should so we ended up 3rd.

FOURTH ROUND: This house would legalize porn that depicts rape

AWESOME! i'm loving this round!the gov defined the motion way out of what we'd predicted earlier on. our points and arguments are pretty much fucked up because of the definition but we managed to twist the words around. we got first!hooray!

it was fun. me and ardie had fun despites of all our losses. ardie was such a sweetheart and we're pretty much laid-back during the whole tournament. no pressure. can't wait for vc! =D

i'm glad that we'd bumped into each other after so long.

don't just disappear.pretty please.

sue me coz' i'm hot!

okay i received my first compound from uitm staff because im sexy according to him. i should have feel happy and flattered but ironically i'm pissed!

i was wearing a long skirt and a tshirt complete with a tube under it and a long-sleeved cardigan. i wore 3 pieces of clothes on a freaking hot day and i made a whole lot of effort to follow some sahsiah rupa diri shits and non appreciated!.

so this narrow-minded and easily aroused staff gave me a compound because he thought the way i dress was sexy.

WHAT THE FUCK!

i was fully covered and obviously he was easily turn on by fully covered women and he blame it on me

staff: awak isi nama and tandatangan

me: encik, selagi saya tak tahu kesalahan saya, saya tak akan tanda tangan.

staff: awak tak tahu kesalahan awak? pakaian awak tu x mengikut sahsiah rupa diri

(hell no!!!long skirt, long-sleeved. engkau buta ke gila???)

me: kalau pakaian saya x ikut sahsiah rupa diri, then sahsiah rupa diri tu macam mana??

staff: hari ni hari apa??(while showing me some sahsiah rupa diri guidlines)

me: khamis

staff: ha! hari khamis kena pakai baju batik

me: owh, salah saya sebab x pakai baju batik pada hari khamis la ni??tapi orang lain pun x pakai, encik sendiri pun x pakai

staff: eh jap, ha! baju awak tu seksi!awak kena pakai baju macam ni ha (showing me pictures of gurls wearing outdated clothes)

me: encik, apa yang seksinya??saya melanggar peraturan ke??cuba encik tengok surat saman tu kat mana kesalahan saya berpakaian.

staff: ok kita cek.(so he practically went through the list to check if i really did break the rule. look mister, you don't have to issue a compound whenever you feel like it, you issue a compound when it is so obvious that the student is breaking the rules. he just obviously bored and stupid )

so in the end, non matches because my dress was not jarang or berlengan pendek, tidak menutup punggung or kain singkat or terbelah, i didnt wear face veils and obviously my skirt is not tight. so what he did was he crossover the jarang word and wrote down "SEKSI"

me: encik, boleh main tambah2 macam tu je ke??

(he nodded and told me it depends on certain circumstances and the compound note should have included "dan lain-lain" on the list. but then again what is lain-lain?when you set up rules, you have to make it clear.you can't expect everyone to have the same perspective as yours. you have to be precise. dan lain-lain can be a guy wearing shocking pink shirt coz' in these staffs' oppinion it makes them look gay and they hate gays. it can be anything )

encik, seksi tu adalah sesuatu yang subjektif, kalau saya dah berlengan panjang, berskirt panjang dan pakaian saya x mengikut tubuh badan pun encik dah rasa seksi saya nak buat macam mana?kalau saya berbaju kurung pun encik akan rasa saya seksi

then they started to call out some lady to maybe threaten me to sign the compound or something and that's when i asked them

me:so i didn't have a say in this do i?

(they gave me the you-are-not-gonna-win-us-over-no-matter-what-because-you're-just-a-student-and-we're-the-staff-that-can-summone-you-and-you-can't-do-anything-about-it-so-just-shut-up look)

i did signed the compound which is definitely a stupid move. i lost in the end.

you know the thing with these a bunch of so-called superior people is that they have the power and they just proud of it. they wanted to show who's the boss to other people and one way is by picking on students because obviously they can't be more superior than ibrahim abu shah and having control over an individual like a student is enough to make their boring day brighter.

so we question what is the guidelines that the staff follows when issuing a compound to a student on sahsiah rupa diri since they can easily add up whatever that they feel on the list?

should the staff issued a compound to students who they think dress inappropriately according to their single-minded definition or to those who break the rules and make it obvious by wearing short-sleeved t-shirt or short-skirt as such?

because rules and guidelines are just as flawed as students and staffs because they are made by human. human make mistakes, human is never fair.